When you need a pick me up💜

  

  

Reading these words the last 18 minutes of my birthday moved me to tears. I was blessed with such an amazing person as my sister. She is my rock when my storms are grey. My biggest supporter. Thank you god for blessing me with a sister. When I was younger I use to pray to god to send me someone who would love me. Who would be there for me. God heard my prays and saw my tears because God sent me you. I love you from the bottom of my heart. Your are beautiful on the inside and the outside. I love you my sister. I save all her emotional texts and look at them when I need a pick me up if I’m not feeling confident in myself.   Today wasn’t one of them but I just needed to give her a shout out of how special she is to me. 

Everyone needs someone in there life if they are having bad days or days where they feel like they feel alone. I am blessed because I have this special young woman in my life. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being by myside. I hope I’m a great of friend to you as you are to me💜💜

Blessed beyond belief,

EbonyMonae

WBW (White Boy Wednesday)

  
Just some Wednesday late night humor. 

MGK so damn sexy. Men with tats 😍.  He’s down with the swirl 🍦. Love his music he speaks some truth in his lyrics. 

EbonyMonae 💋

Happy Birthday to Me💜

I  turned twenty-six on Sunday October 25th. First and foremost I want to thank the Lord for blessing me with another year on this earth. With all my health problems this past year I didn’t know if I would make it this far.

Twenty-six years ago my biological mother gave birth to me on Wednesday October 25th at 7:28am. Six years later I was placed in a foster home and adopted a year later. As I do every year I wonder if you think of me on this day. The little girl your gave life too. I wonder do you think about the person I have become? Do you think about my smile if I have yours or my fathers? Do you pray for my safe keeping? Do you think about the silly things I do?

Since I don’t know where to look for you. I want you to know a few things about me. My favorite color is purple. My greatest fear is to be alone and to be a disappointment to someone.  My greatest accomplishment in this world will never be menial things but making a difference in this world with my words or actions. I want you to know that I’m doing fine. Some days are hard, but I know I am blessed because I have great friends and family. My best friend is my rock when my world turns dark. She see’s me at my worst but always loves me just the same. I want you to know that I’m on the road to greatness. I am going to do something with my life. I will make a difference.  To know That I’m following my dreams. People have doubted that I would even make it. But I am. I want you to know that I think of you. That I wonder if I look like you. I see my niece, your grandchild and I wonder if she would ever get to meet you or to the know you.

These words of mines most likely will never reach your eyes, but these words come from my heart. My final words to you are I Forgive You. 

Forever your little girl, 

EbonyMonae

 

💜 Life

  
This is all I want to do with my life right now. 

Travel to new places. 

Explore different cultures. 

Live my life on my own terms. 

That’s what loving life is to me. 

Happy Friday💜 

😍Ebony Monae 😍

ps 

Follow your heart. Do what you really want to. Life is all about taking chances. Never forget that💜

Happy Monday (MCM)

  

😍😍😏😏👀👀!!! 

Just some Monday humor, but damnnnnnn. Lol I deff would of been like that , but totally forgot to call them back cuz I would of been watching him the whole damn time. 

😏Ebonymonae 😏

Taking The Next Step💪🏾

  

First things first Happy October!! I love the month of October the fall leaves start to change different colors. With the leaves changing I want to change as well. I want to change my body.

This year I wanted to take control of my weight. I am one of those people who carries there weight well (to me weight its weight). Currently I am 170 and for my 5’1 frame I am considered obese. When I stare at myself in the mirror I don’t see beautiful. I don’t see a person I am comfortable with. This whole year has been about change from the inside out. I am the type of person who looses weight pretty quickly but also gains it as well. It’s a cycle I go through, I gain and loose. Now as the colder months hit and I am taking out my winter clothes none of them FIT. I am wearing black leggings to work almost every day because my dress slacks don’t fit. My blouses don’t fit. LITERALLY NOTHING FITS. 

Today I said enough is enough. I want to live a healthy livestyle. I want to feel comfortable and beautiful in my clothes and not worry about my bra rolls OR tummy rolls. Today I finally admitted I needed some outside help. So with the help of my best friend I joined drum roll please (does the universal sign for drum roll) Weight Watchers.

I know you guys are probably thinking its Weight Watchers not a big deal but to me that’s a huge freaking deal. I’m the type of person that’s does everything on my own. I dont like to depend on people at all. It comes naturally that losing weight should be done on my own. So signing up for Weight Watchers means I will be going to the meetings once a week and getting weighed in. I, being me wanted to take it one step further with Weight Watchers I am giving  myself week by week goals. Starting Monday its workout for 30 Mins a day with Cassie Ho (blogilates) and then the next week eat more vegetables and so on. I read somewhere if you give yourself short obtainable goals they are easier to reach.

So for the month of October I am planning on loosing weight. I want to truly begin living an lifestyle that is healthy. I don’t know how I am going to write about it. I know some days will be hard and the other days will be easier. I am happy to finally take this step towards being healthy and comfortable in my own skin.

Soon to be Fit and Fabulous

Ebony Monae

p.s

I don’t want people to take this the wrong way about what I wrote. Some people feel like you should learn to love your body the way it is. But I feel like if you can change something about yourself than you should. I don’t want people to think that I am talking about plastic surgery. I am talking about hard work and determination of knowing what my body needs and making the best changes a I can.