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Reflection of 2015💗

As 2015 ended and 2016 begins. I felt the need to reflect back on several things this past year that I have been through and overcame!

I was sick.  But I made it through. I was literally seeing a hematologist everyweek. Having 12 big vials of blood drawn out every week. One problem affected all the other health problems I had going on. Some days I wanted to give up. But I had to believe God had better plans for my life. When I felt like I couldn’t go on. I got the strength to go on. When I felt alone my best friend was by myside through it all. 

 I learned that life is precious and it’s time to leave my comfort zone.  Going through a lot of health problems has taught me this. Life is supposed to be lived. I refuse to live by the sidelines.

Family! I let that go. I embraced my non-tradional family. That’s means I was adopted by a family that loved me. I was adopted into a family at the age of five that for years I felt like I didn’t belong because I wouldn’t conform to there way of thinking. For years I was hurt because I felt unloved by them, I tried to make them love me. Let me work harder in school, let me let them use me to show them I will always be there. They didn’t understand me. I learned that the siblings you grow up with or parents who raise you doesn’t intentionally mean that they have to be your family. I learned that the people who were suppose to by my side during my darkest days were not. Through a lot of reflection I learned that it’s okay.  I can’t make people love me. I can’t make people be there for me. I can’t change who I am to be someone I a not so they can like me. I also learned that my non traditional family is my family. I am loved and I am accepted flaws and all. 

I am learning to love Ebony Monae.  I have let people make me feel worthless, ugly, unlovable. This year it stopped. My friend told me I had to look at myself objectively. What did I see when I looked at myself. I saw a fighter. When life got hard I kept on pushing. When people doubted me I showed them what I am made of. When people who I loved hurt me, I learned to let go. That for me is the hardest thing to do. When I look in the mirror I see beauty, not just my outward appearance but my inner beauty is shining through. I see a kind spirit. Someone who loves to laugh and make others do the same. 

I am not perfect. I learned that it’s okay to fail. To make mistakes. Life is all about growth. Make mistakes and learn from them. Fail but always get back up. 

In 2016 I want to do so many things and nothing will Stop Me!! 

In 2016 I promise to:

Live Life! 

Love 💜 Myself! 

Forgive! 

Make Mistakes! 

Laugh😂!

Be Kind! 

Be Genergous! 

Love, Freely/Hard!!! 

Be Healthy!!

Be HAPPY😊!!

Xoxo Ebony Monae Xoxo

ps. 

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year! May we all work on things this year that brings us happiness! 





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