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Trust Your Journey! 

  
Happy Friday Loves💜! 

It’s Friday! Finally I can unwind and relax. NOT! Busy weekend coming up! Enough about me. How is everyone doing? I hope you had an amazing week. I hope you did all the things you wanted to do. I hope you stuck to you healthy eating plan. I hoped you walked away from people that hurt you. I hope you stood up for yourself. If not there is always tomorrow OR right now. Remember life is too short to waste on tomorrow’s. Right now in this moment claim your life back. 

My message to you on this Friday is don’t give up. Life will confuse you. Life will knock you down. Keep on fighting the good fight. Whatever you do, DO NOT GIVE UP! I believe that anything you put your mind to you can achieve. 

Last week I applied to take the civil service test for child protective services in my county. I actually take it a month away. Then on Wednesday I received an email for a per Diem job opportunity working with foster children. God is amazing! A couple of months ago I was  lost with my life. No plan, no direction. Now I have a job opportunity. Maybe I will like it. Maybe I won’t. But I will say that I’m going to try it. I don’t want to sit back and let opportunities pass me by.   

Life is all about learning and growing. I am learning about me. I told you guys in previous post for too long I have put so many people before me. Now I will put myself first💜! 

My message to you is to trust in Gods promise. He has a plan for your life. He will not lead you astray. I’m a testament to that. So trust in your journey. Yea, you may feel lost and yea you may feel alone, but know this you are not alone because I too have been in that place your in at this moment. I know that if you don’t give up amazing things will happen in your life. 

Blessed and Highly Favored, 

Ebony Monae! 

ps,

Keep GOING💜

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Lost in Translation😔

I finished my last semester of my undergrad last December. I can not stress how  happy I am that I completed my BA as it had been a long time coming. 

But as that chapter came to a close. Another opens. I began to ask myself questions like what to do next with my life? What comes after this achievement? Are all people lost like I am? Or is it just me? 

I see my friends are having children, getting married and know what they want to do with there lives and I just don’t. I thought as you grow up you know what steps to take next in life. I thought when I became an adult there was a manual on life. I know after high school it’s college. I did that. What’s after college? More college? How do I begin to live life when I don’t even know what I want to do with my life. 

When I look at other educational  options all I see is more testing or more money to spend that I don’t have. It’s a major turn off for me. I pride myself on being an example for my siblings. Even though two are older than me and another is younger I refuse to be another statistic. I want to show them that there is other options to life than what we have been exposed to. But when I see all that goes into furthering myself it’s discouraging. I don’t want to do anything with myself. Then I start to feel like a failure. A big fat failure. Ugh why does life have to be so damn on confusing and frustrating. 

Can anyone relate to this? I’m 26 and yet so confused more than ever about life. Hopefully I will find some much needed direction soon. 

Lost girl, 

EbonyMonae 

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Stopped being Alive and started LIVING!!

Hey fellow bloggers, it’s been a long time since I written. I been going through things. And when I go through things I turn to my writing but even that I didn’t want to do because my feelings and emotions were all over the place.

Since I last written I gained a beautiful niece👶🏾and nephew👶🏾. I have had surgery, ended my semester somewhat okay. I got a different position at my job. Life should be going good right? Wrong it’s not. I should not be complaining because through it all I’m still breathing, I have food in my belly and clothes on my back I should be blessed. But deep down inside I am lost.

I am at a cross road in my life and I feel lost and lonely and scared. I am lost because I don’t know what direction to take with my life. Scared because I don’t want to make the wrong choice and end up looking stupid in life. Lonely because when I see my friends and family settling down and starting a family I have no one to do any of that with.

I recently read a book that put what I was feeling into perspective. “Stop being alive and start LIVING” That is what I am doing with my life. I thought life has times when I have to do certain things and they don’t. Its okay to not have those things others have in there lives because everyone is different and god has a different plan for everyone.

Life is all about living and that is what I plan on doing. Stop being afraid to be lonely because someone is out there for me and stop being lost and take one day at time because life has a funny way of showing you things that matter most.

💜💜 Ebony Monae💜💜
To anyone that is feeling this just remember life is supposed to be LIVED. So START LIVING💝💝

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I Am Ready When I Am Ready !

Last week was an emotional week for me, as I turned 25 in October it has been on everyone’s mind to tell me it is time to get married and have children. I always just tell people that I want to be married first before I have any children. Since my little sister is pregnant and my older brothers girlfriend is as well (they are due 3 weeks apart), it has been on everyones mind to tell me to start reproducing. All my siblings have children now.  My mom is down my neck about spending time with my kids before she dies as it was her birthday last week and it really put it home for her that she is getting older. As my other friends are getting married and or engaged I have other family telling me that its time to get married. It just really put me down because I felt no one respected my choice to not have kids yet or that I will not marry just anyone. I saw this quote on Pinterest and it really spoke to my spirit.

After looking at the quote for sometime I let everyone know that you may not to have agree with my methods but you will respect it and then I proceeded to tell people how I really felt. One of my wishes before having children would be to get married and get established with myself. Raising a child is hard work and it requires two parent team. I do not just want to have a child by some guy that I know who won’t be a good father to my child and that is what I really want in my child’s life is a good man. I am still on a journey to self discovery. By finding who I am and loving me I whole heartedly believe that I will become a better parent and wife in the long run. I love the last part of the quote “Give Birth To Yourself” that is so powerful to me. I can’t in good conscious create another life but I can give birth to someone I am proud of and hopefully my future children. 

To all the young men and woman that may be going through something similar in your life DO NOT let anyone pressure you to do something you do not want to do. Understand that it is your life and others should respect your choices on what to do with it. As I sit down and write this I feel 100% better that I know that I made the right choice in my life to not have children at this point and not marry someone who is not good for me or makes me happy.  Life is short do what you want to do live your life because it can be gone in a minute. 

 xOxO EbonyMonae xOxO 

 p.s. 

 Give Birth to the person YOU are most happy with<3!!