As you know this week its all about #selfcare. I want to just focus on me this week. I plan on mediating this morning and I’m going to burn some sage to clear my aura. I am starting to feel lighter and so much better. Todays topic is letting go. Even if that includes people.
A couple of months ago I had my heart broken in two, besides being devastated I felt like a damn fool. When I felt like this all those insecurities started to enter my mind. I started to ask myself if I was good enough? Am I pretty enough? I started to degrade myself. Started to feel unworthy. What I should of told myself “Yes I Am Enough”
During that time I didn’t want to face the truth, so I closed myself off and wallowed in my pain. This was also a reason I didn’t blog. I felt like a damn fraud to my readers. I encouraged you to walk away from hurtful people, yet I didn’t. I let this person back into my life. I fell for the lies and I fell hard. For the last couple of months I carried that hurt with me, but TODAY its gone You want to know why? Because it is not my pain to carry. I gave my all to a person who was not ready, but I don’t deserve to allow that pain to stay with me.
I came to realization that what is meant to be is meant to be. I had to learn to let go of something that was not good for me. I will say during that time I didn’t want to hear that, didn’t want to see that. Now reflecting on it, I am glad it ended the way it did because NOW I know what I deserve. NOW I know better. NOW I am stronger. To anyone going through heartbreak know that it gets better. Know that you learn to smile through the pain and the first breath after letting it all go is the most beautiful sound you will ever hear.
There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go!