Body Positive Monday

Morningggggg lovesss,

So yesterday evening I posted a post that was very raw to me. I hope you read it. If not it’s going to be right before this one. Today’s quote is:

Love your body. I have big ass boobs and a flat butt but you know what I’m going to love me anyway. I also have stretch marks galore. But I’m going to love how God made me. I know it’s hard. Trust me it’s freaking hard. But love it anyway. It’s time we learn to love us for US.

Love you guys and I hope my quote helps you💕

XoXo 😘

-E

Your Uniquely You

This week Affirmation is that your uniquely you. I posted this picture a month or so back. On Friday it applied to my life.

On Friday I posted a picture of myself dressed as a  some would say an hippie. This era to me reflects woman empowerment and how they really wanted change. Anyways that night I received ridicule and was made fun of for my outfit (personally I thought I looked cute). What I am trying to say I was living my life how I saw fit. I was BEING MYSELF. Those words could have changed my whole outlook. I could have let others thoughts define me. In the end I remember the ending of this quote “…live only as YOU can.”  I Understood that my  life was completely mines to do with it what I wanted to. I am living it how you see I fit.

One of the biggest things I want my readers to understand is that life is short. We are not promised tomorrow. With that being said be the person you want to be, live life on your own terms. Last Wednesday I wrote a post about taking a jump in your life. Now I want you to accept who you are. I want you to love the person who you are becoming. You are strong, brilliant, beautiful. I say this mantra to myself everyday. It reminds me where I came from. The girl with so much self hate and turmoil in her life. Everyday is a battle. So I remind myself that I am beautiful and I am enough.

Keep this in mind as you go about the rest of your week. Have fun. Love openly.  Dance, sing or read but do it because you love it. Do it because it makes you happy. You don’t have to dance perfectly or sing on key. Sing and dance because it brings your spirit joy.

 

Living Life As Only I Can,

Ebony Monae<3

 

 

 

Never Settle

Lord please never let me settle for anything in my life. Give me the strength and courage to follow my dreams and goals. You know my true potential  so I ask that you push me towards it. In 2016 I want to do so many things. Help transform so many lives. I know I can’t do that if I don’t leave my comfort zone. I’m making a pledge to myself to never settle with anything in my life. Always strive for more. If I don’t I will always be wondering.

To the person that is reading this never settle for anything in your life. “If you want more then get more”. Life is to short not to achieve your goals in life. Love yourself. Love your journey. Love life. Never give up. 

Xoxo EbonyMonae Xoxo

ps

Always remember to push towards your true potential. 

Patiently Waiting for my Love Story💗

 Sometimes I forget about the true meaning of being patient!  
I am so glad I came across this on my Pinterest board. I will be turning twenty-six on my birthday in October. With all my friends starting to settle down; I will admit it reminds me how lonely I am. Especially when all your siblings have children and your moms (my best friends mom and my own mother) start to give you the it’s time to settle down talk. Those conversations makes me realize how alone I am. How I would love to be in a relationship again. Even though I would like to be in a relationship I Will NOT SETTLE! 

 I want to be in a relationship that is based on love, honesty and trust something I never had in any of my past relationships. But seeing this made me take a step back and look at my life and see where I am. My nana use to say “God has plan for everything in your life”  and she is correct I just have to be patient there is something he wants me to learn before he can present me with the man that can awaken my heart and break down the walls surrounding it. I will thank god when he does because I will know that man will be the a true gift from God! 

Sometimes in life we have to take a step back from the things we don’t won’t so God can direct us towards the things that we should HAVE. 

Patiently Waiting,

Ebony Monae💜

ps

Don’t loose hope and just settle, someone will come along and sweep you off your feet💜

Well Hello September 🍂🍁🍃

  
Well guess what guys? It’s almost FALLLLL!!!! Yes you read right fall! I love fall. It’s my favorite time of year. I will admit I am sad to see summer come to a close. It was not one of my best summers but it will be memorable.  

As I move forward into September and the fall I just want to enjoy the beauty of life and all it has to offer!! And get a new pair of Uggs lol! 

I hope everyone enjoys there first day of the month. I hope we all set goals and stand by them for the month of September! 

🍂EbonyMonae🍂

I’m Coming For It!!

  
All my life people made me feel like because I was adopted and my biological mother was on drugs and had her parental rights terminated that I would turn out to be just like her. Always hearing that saying “The apple don’t fall far from the tree.” How I use to hate that statement. It use to bother me something fierce growing up. Still does for that matter. 

I never understood why people thought it’s was okay to tear someone down instead of lifting them up. With my biological mother being that way didn’t mean I was going to be that way. A quote from a favorite poem ” I am her daughter but I am not her choices.” I make my own choices and the burden of her life choices should not be mines to bear. Life has a funny way of proving those type of people wrong. 

But today I stand on my on two feet because of the grace of God. I am drug free, I am a hard worker. I attend school full time while holding down two jobs. 

This post is for the people that made me feel like my dreams didn’t matter. That I was going to be another statistic. Your ignorance drove me to be the person I am today. Everything you said I couldn’t have I am coming for it. Just watch me shine because it’s going to be so bright it just might be blinded by it ✨✨✨🌟🌟. 

😍😍 EbonyMonae😍😍

p.s. 

Don’t let people stop your shine my lovelies. If there is something you want, go for it because it will kill them more to know that your COMING FOR/GOT IT💜

Stopped being Alive and started LIVING!!

Hey fellow bloggers, it’s been a long time since I written. I been going through things. And when I go through things I turn to my writing but even that I didn’t want to do because my feelings and emotions were all over the place.

Since I last written I gained a beautiful niece👶🏾and nephew👶🏾. I have had surgery, ended my semester somewhat okay. I got a different position at my job. Life should be going good right? Wrong it’s not. I should not be complaining because through it all I’m still breathing, I have food in my belly and clothes on my back I should be blessed. But deep down inside I am lost.

I am at a cross road in my life and I feel lost and lonely and scared. I am lost because I don’t know what direction to take with my life. Scared because I don’t want to make the wrong choice and end up looking stupid in life. Lonely because when I see my friends and family settling down and starting a family I have no one to do any of that with.

I recently read a book that put what I was feeling into perspective. “Stop being alive and start LIVING” That is what I am doing with my life. I thought life has times when I have to do certain things and they don’t. Its okay to not have those things others have in there lives because everyone is different and god has a different plan for everyone.

Life is all about living and that is what I plan on doing. Stop being afraid to be lonely because someone is out there for me and stop being lost and take one day at time because life has a funny way of showing you things that matter most.

💜💜 Ebony Monae💜💜
To anyone that is feeling this just remember life is supposed to be LIVED. So START LIVING💝💝

Thank You So Much

I just want to take the time out too thank those that read my posts and like them or comment on them. It means so much to me you have no idea. Going through the things I have been through or going to go through sometimes makes me feel alone, I feel at times know one understands what I am going through. Its like my feelings are not justified. When I feel this way I turn to writing. It is hard for me to express my feelings verbally but when my hands hit the keyboard they just type exactly what I want to say. My fingers tips have mind of their own. To know that people are feeling the same way I am and going through what I am going through, to know that I am not alone gives a young woman like me so much hope in life and it gives me a voice. From the bottom of my heart I truly thank you so much.

xOxO EbonyMonae xOxO

ITS APRILLLLLLLLLLL!!

Hello Everyone its APRIL!

This morning while working out I actually heard birds chirping in my complex. April really means spring to me even if it began in the month of March. So this month I have so much in store for myself I am so excited.

I am almost done with this semester THANK YOU JESUS. I just was so lazy this semester, well I am every semester but this one takes the cake. I have my friends baby shower coming up that I helped plan and will help decorate. I am the worst at these things because I am so not the artsy type but I really surprised myself this time, I guess you can blame Pinterest. Some good books are coming out( ALWAYS a book nerd), AGE OF ULTRON is coming to the big screen, ohh yea I have been waiting three years for this movie. It is the last one to be directed by Joss Whedon as he will not be doing the last movie in 2017(a little bummed as he is an amazing director).

I have started my Fit Journal from Blogilates. In this Fit Journal its 12 weeks of working out and eating clean. Last month I really bombed my workouts and meal prep. This month I plan to do better than last month and really work hard. I want to be healthy and fit and feel comfortable in my own skin. For so long I did not like how my body looked and always complained, but I need to shut my mouth and work the hell out, that is what I want to accomplish this month.

I hope everyone has a productive month of April. If you have to spring clean do it give away the things that you no longer use. Clean the clutter from your house and LIFE. If a person is not doing anything to help you or make you grow as an person throw there ass right out with the the things you no longer need because its all about a better and stronger you.

XoXo EbonyMonaeXoXo

p.s.

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!!!! (hope you get into some mischief like I shall be doing today)

I Am Ready When I Am Ready !

Last week was an emotional week for me, as I turned 25 in October it has been on everyone’s mind to tell me it is time to get married and have children. I always just tell people that I want to be married first before I have any children. Since my little sister is pregnant and my older brothers girlfriend is as well (they are due 3 weeks apart), it has been on everyones mind to tell me to start reproducing. All my siblings have children now.  My mom is down my neck about spending time with my kids before she dies as it was her birthday last week and it really put it home for her that she is getting older. As my other friends are getting married and or engaged I have other family telling me that its time to get married. It just really put me down because I felt no one respected my choice to not have kids yet or that I will not marry just anyone. I saw this quote on Pinterest and it really spoke to my spirit.

After looking at the quote for sometime I let everyone know that you may not to have agree with my methods but you will respect it and then I proceeded to tell people how I really felt. One of my wishes before having children would be to get married and get established with myself. Raising a child is hard work and it requires two parent team. I do not just want to have a child by some guy that I know who won’t be a good father to my child and that is what I really want in my child’s life is a good man. I am still on a journey to self discovery. By finding who I am and loving me I whole heartedly believe that I will become a better parent and wife in the long run. I love the last part of the quote “Give Birth To Yourself” that is so powerful to me. I can’t in good conscious create another life but I can give birth to someone I am proud of and hopefully my future children. 

To all the young men and woman that may be going through something similar in your life DO NOT let anyone pressure you to do something you do not want to do. Understand that it is your life and others should respect your choices on what to do with it. As I sit down and write this I feel 100% better that I know that I made the right choice in my life to not have children at this point and not marry someone who is not good for me or makes me happy.  Life is short do what you want to do live your life because it can be gone in a minute. 

 xOxO EbonyMonae xOxO 

 p.s. 

 Give Birth to the person YOU are most happy with<3!!